before my blog go rusty, haha...

have not been blogging for quite sometimes and anyway i dun really like blogging. nothing to do then find something to do. baby have went back to them since ending of MAY and till now i have not see him yet, really feel like going up to see him but something is pulling me back. will i ever give up baby??? people who dunno me will feel that i am being heartless by having this thought but things are far more than what most people think of. since baby went back i have been playing like mad, going here and there no matter weekdays or weekend. i simply love my lifestyle now but i know this wont last long, i am just escaping from the reality. why things always dun turn out well for me, am i having retribution for the bad things that i have done last time? how i wish i can turn back time, back to the day when i knew her. before knowing her, i only wanted to ....... but after being together i really fell in love with her. i realy regret, for so many gals why did i fall for her and being together with her for the longest, shit.