what happen to my relationship?

cannot get to sleep until now.. not happy with girl today, i also dunno why? maybe the feeling i s very uncomfortable. let me first update what i have been doing nowadays. monday nothing much happen, go back to camp as usual, slack and slack.

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camp got battlion life run but i never go. so go back to camp and wait for my friends to come back from the run before we go to nonek house and paint. OC SIR want us to help him out with his house as something happen to his family(not convenient to talk here). i felt pitiful for him. after reaching his house, each person have our own task and we jus keep on painting until 5 plus when SIR called it a day as everyone was shag out. actually having our cohesion tomorrow but everyone feel that we should finished up with the painting at nonek house so we decided to have cohesion at his house.

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after morning CO parade, we went to nonek house again. we do our painting unitl 6 before we ordered food and drinks. have fast food and beer to go along. stay there unitl 8plus i thnk before i go back. had nearly 4 bottles of beer. later in the night, meet ong, long and yong to k-ster. was smsing with girl as she is having ktv session with her friends at orchard. suddenly she stop replying me and i call her and she say its not very nice of her to keep on sms and talking on the phone while she is with her friends. then i say ok loh, after her session with her friends then i asked her over but she keep talking about money matters to me which make me very pek chek then i ask her to go home. but in the we talked on the phone then she came over. sang unitl 4 and go suppper before heading home. came back home but only slept for 2 hours unitl 8 am. dunno why cannot get to sleep, haiz.. but still lie on the bed, doze off sometimes b4 finally we wake up at 1 plus. meet ah girl for lunch but was late for 1 hour. luckily she never give me a scolding. sorry ah girl.

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happy 42 birthday singapore.

went sakae to have our lunch. meet wanfen and baby at her house there. girl, me, ah girl, wanfen and baby went down to PS. we had our dinner there at swenson, but i never eat jus had ice-cream. went up to the game arcade, they was playing with the doll catcher game so i decided to give it a try, and i was so lucky that i caught the doll at the 1st attempt(i think baby give me luck),haha.. baby was so happy and he keep on saying daddy got it le, so cute.. can speak so many word already. after everything, i send wanfen and baby back. girl and me went down to people park to deposit money to my friend. planning to save money so wanted to take a train home but when i reach outram park, packed with ppl and most of them indian. cannot tolerate a kind of smell from them so i ask girl to take a cab. send her back and i went home.. chat wiith her until 1am b4 i retire to my sleep.

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sleep unitl 1 before i get awaken up by ah long cal. lazily drag myself out from the bed, online msn and chat with girl. she suddenly asked to go have lunch with her then i straight call ah long to go down with me, girl was shocked, haha..we went to have our malay chicken rice, the food there is delicious. (girl intro one). after lunch girl went back to store while me and long wander around in orchard. girl meet me during dinner after she ate with her friends. as i was telling her i will be going down to boat quay then she asked me you want me to wear the ipod shirt(her uniform)down to boat quay huh? she jokingly say, you buy one shirt for me loh. but i take it seriously, i went straight down to left foot and bought a shirt for her.( dare me again loh). i left for my dinner at marina south with long, and Q Q. waited an hour for AKK to arrive, so pek chek. by the time already 9plus, girl have knock off and she came down to look for me. we have our dinner till 11. planning to go boat quay but everything was cancelled due to "aeroplane fly so high", sianz lah. so me girl and long went down to ARENA to attend johnny but the place dun suit me so decided to go boat quay. reaching there, every pub was full so walk here walk there until we found a place that is very relax to haev a drink. the story of me become more pek chek start here.

girl keep on smsing her friends and her friend s called her. she told me msg with me no manner but with me then she keep on doing other things. how can i dun feel uncomfortable??? maybe her friends is better and important.. i send her back after we finished our drink, not very happy with her then nv talk much. i go back home straight. girl, what i want to tell you is, give me some respect when we are together. i really dun feel like i am in your heart. we only get together for a short time and all is good times. if one day, you got to survive bad times with me, are you willing? if one day, i become very broke and very sianz to you then what will you do? not many girls can take hardship and i dun wan you to sufffer also. this world is realistic, you got money then you got the say.. i dunno what will become of our relationship BUT I SINCERELY HOPE THAT IT WILL WORK OUT. one thing i am puzzled, why do i have to go down to the chalet then you can come to my house? you said you are worry to be alone, but i ask you taking cab back to my house will take how long only? half and hour the most? if you think not worth it to pay the cab then i pay for you loh. you think for yourself lah, i cant always give you good times, my way of spending you shld know, that is why i tell you i must start to save up le.. please tell me what you want in this relationship..