baby javier is sick

came home around 2.05, i think. today, i took child sick leave to visit javier and he really don't look well. pray hard that he will get better soon. after visiting him then i went to fetch girl from her school with ah long at aljunied. yesterday was the first time that i went down to fetch her, after fetching her then we went to have our dian xin near gelyang lor ?? send her back but parted at jurong east mrt interchange(she wanted me to save money, dun everytime waste money on unnecessary things). chat with her at 2 plus til 4 plus, she must be damn tired because she have not been sleeping well for the past few days. ke lian de girl, haha.. we have talked alot of things on how should we do to work this relatinship out.(think too far le). if we can still contnue like this way after the so-called honeymoon period then i think everything will be fine. i don't want to have anymore failed relationship, if i failed again then i think i will stay single forever, can fool around and nobody will get hurt. be a bachelor also not bad, haha.. don't talk about this le, today i send her back to her house and take 187 from boon lay inetrchange, last bus some more. long journey from boon lay to woodlands. went to have supper at WD 892C with ah long before coming home. came home and slack until now.. dunno why cannot get to sleep, what am i thinking of??? everytime have so many problem but i still wanna keep on creating problem to make myself headache, aiyo.. siao leh, me. dunno what i am thinking about also. shall go and clean up myself and go to sleep. night everyone..

what happen to my relationship?

cannot get to sleep until now.. not happy with girl today, i also dunno why? maybe the feeling i s very uncomfortable. let me first update what i have been doing nowadays. monday nothing much happen, go back to camp as usual, slack and slack.

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camp got battlion life run but i never go. so go back to camp and wait for my friends to come back from the run before we go to nonek house and paint. OC SIR want us to help him out with his house as something happen to his family(not convenient to talk here). i felt pitiful for him. after reaching his house, each person have our own task and we jus keep on painting until 5 plus when SIR called it a day as everyone was shag out. actually having our cohesion tomorrow but everyone feel that we should finished up with the painting at nonek house so we decided to have cohesion at his house.

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after morning CO parade, we went to nonek house again. we do our painting unitl 6 before we ordered food and drinks. have fast food and beer to go along. stay there unitl 8plus i thnk before i go back. had nearly 4 bottles of beer. later in the night, meet ong, long and yong to k-ster. was smsing with girl as she is having ktv session with her friends at orchard. suddenly she stop replying me and i call her and she say its not very nice of her to keep on sms and talking on the phone while she is with her friends. then i say ok loh, after her session with her friends then i asked her over but she keep talking about money matters to me which make me very pek chek then i ask her to go home. but in the we talked on the phone then she came over. sang unitl 4 and go suppper before heading home. came back home but only slept for 2 hours unitl 8 am. dunno why cannot get to sleep, haiz.. but still lie on the bed, doze off sometimes b4 finally we wake up at 1 plus. meet ah girl for lunch but was late for 1 hour. luckily she never give me a scolding. sorry ah girl.

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happy 42 birthday singapore.

went sakae to have our lunch. meet wanfen and baby at her house there. girl, me, ah girl, wanfen and baby went down to PS. we had our dinner there at swenson, but i never eat jus had ice-cream. went up to the game arcade, they was playing with the doll catcher game so i decided to give it a try, and i was so lucky that i caught the doll at the 1st attempt(i think baby give me luck),haha.. baby was so happy and he keep on saying daddy got it le, so cute.. can speak so many word already. after everything, i send wanfen and baby back. girl and me went down to people park to deposit money to my friend. planning to save money so wanted to take a train home but when i reach outram park, packed with ppl and most of them indian. cannot tolerate a kind of smell from them so i ask girl to take a cab. send her back and i went home.. chat wiith her until 1am b4 i retire to my sleep.

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sleep unitl 1 before i get awaken up by ah long cal. lazily drag myself out from the bed, online msn and chat with girl. she suddenly asked to go have lunch with her then i straight call ah long to go down with me, girl was shocked, haha..we went to have our malay chicken rice, the food there is delicious. (girl intro one). after lunch girl went back to store while me and long wander around in orchard. girl meet me during dinner after she ate with her friends. as i was telling her i will be going down to boat quay then she asked me you want me to wear the ipod shirt(her uniform)down to boat quay huh? she jokingly say, you buy one shirt for me loh. but i take it seriously, i went straight down to left foot and bought a shirt for her.( dare me again loh). i left for my dinner at marina south with long, and Q Q. waited an hour for AKK to arrive, so pek chek. by the time already 9plus, girl have knock off and she came down to look for me. we have our dinner till 11. planning to go boat quay but everything was cancelled due to "aeroplane fly so high", sianz lah. so me girl and long went down to ARENA to attend johnny but the place dun suit me so decided to go boat quay. reaching there, every pub was full so walk here walk there until we found a place that is very relax to haev a drink. the story of me become more pek chek start here.

girl keep on smsing her friends and her friend s called her. she told me msg with me no manner but with me then she keep on doing other things. how can i dun feel uncomfortable??? maybe her friends is better and important.. i send her back after we finished our drink, not very happy with her then nv talk much. i go back home straight. girl, what i want to tell you is, give me some respect when we are together. i really dun feel like i am in your heart. we only get together for a short time and all is good times. if one day, you got to survive bad times with me, are you willing? if one day, i become very broke and very sianz to you then what will you do? not many girls can take hardship and i dun wan you to sufffer also. this world is realistic, you got money then you got the say.. i dunno what will become of our relationship BUT I SINCERELY HOPE THAT IT WILL WORK OUT. one thing i am puzzled, why do i have to go down to the chalet then you can come to my house? you said you are worry to be alone, but i ask you taking cab back to my house will take how long only? half and hour the most? if you think not worth it to pay the cab then i pay for you loh. you think for yourself lah, i cant always give you good times, my way of spending you shld know, that is why i tell you i must start to save up le.. please tell me what you want in this relationship..

a shag out me..

jus came back from jalan kayu. went to eat there after we left the new loyang tua pek kong. first time there, the building structure was awesome. everything was nicely done up. went with fuxing, zhaocheng, jolynn and ah long. update for this few days.
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got a off day from camp, stay at home the whole day.. do cleaning for the house.. dilly dally the whole day and end up doing nothing most of the times. by the time i finished, it was already in the morning. haha.. chat with girl till 3 if i am not mistaken. girl told me that she have to go to SP on saturday and have to wake up at 6.15 so i decided to give her morning call so i stay awake until the timing. after i called her then still cannot get to sleep so i watch tv until 7.10 b4 giving her a call to chat till she reach SP. abt 8, i went into my dreamland.. ZzzzZZzzzz....
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wake up at 12plus, dunno why cannot get to sleep? haiz.. went for my lunch b4 i start my housechores again. unexpectedly, girl knock off at 5 which is very early compare to her normal knock off time. she came to look for me as sunday was her off day. i was still half-way doing my things and the house was in a mess when girl reach my place. i meet her downstairs as i was on the way back from the market. went out to buy her things which she needed when she stay overnight at my house. after she came, i had my late lunch which she have bought( i asked her to buy).. after she take her bath then she went to have a nap while i carry on with my things. later in the night, we went to watch movie(secret by jay chou) at yishun. overall, the show is nice plus some part very funny. the someone who make this funny was huang qiu shen( acting jay chou father). will recommend people to watch. after movie, we came back to have our drink( corona plus lemon) before we finally retire to bed at 4 plus. but cannot get to sleep till 8 in the morning, wow..
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get awaken by sgt terence call at aroudnd 1pm, ask me to buy 4-D for him. when i turn ard, girl eyes was staring at me and that give me a shock.(girl, ren xia ren, xia si ren, haha...). couldn't get to sleep after that. so lazily drag myself out from the bed to wash up. had MAC for lunch. watch SCV until 6 before we went out to meet ah long to west mall to change my sim-card. actually was sending girl back to her home but she having dinner with her parents at bukit-batok. after she went off for her dinner, i and ah long went to west mall for a walk, haha.. (stupid right?) ate dinner at one of the coffeeshop in BB before coming back to woodlans to buy something. on the way to buy things, we saw chinese ritual and i am curious about it so i stay and watch. it was a bloody scene, the people there (use sword, iron ball ad etc..) hit themselves and the blood just ooze out from the back. see le also worry for the people there... after everything, meety fuxing le..
As for now, going to sleep le, have not been sleeping well for the past 2 days.. have been chatting with girl quite often, simply got too much to say.. haha.. honeymoon period is like that.. how i wish the feeling will never go away. talk so much for one time, tired le.. night.. *yawnzzz

the lazy me

going out to have my dinner soon.. yesterday after book out from camp, i went to meet wen with ah long at jurong kbox. sing and drink unitl 3am. send wen back after that went to take my bike which i park below her block. on the way back, there was road block and the first thing that came to mind was that i have been drinking. luckily, nothing happen. cold sweat man. went supper at chong pang nasi lemak. by the time i finish my supper, it was already 4 so i was thinking why dun go back to camp if not tml sure cannot wake up if i sleep at home. .haha, i am a lazy person. went back to camp and slept till 11 b4 i dread myself to wake up as alot of officers came to our office to do the TTX. if i was caught sleeping during office hour, sure die one.. went to look for my campmates and talk cock until lunch time. after that, do some cleaning and slack until 9 plus in the camp b4 booking out. all for today..

i wll treasure this relationship..

today 1st of August, gone into another relationship. at first i have no confidence in myself because of one failed marriage but she told me to look on the bright side of life. since she know that i got a baby and can accept me, why dun give me and her a chance to start a relationship, girl, i know that you are very timid but i want you to speak up your mind. dun bottle everything up in yourself. i will be there to share your happiness, sorrow and everything. have trust in me. as long as there is mutual trust and love between us, i know this relationship will work. never again you will hear me say on those things that you dun wan to hear. i want to get to know you better. but what i dun wish is that the yi sa na decision of you. never sleep at all, going back to camp now. shag out, haha..

what am i thinking of?

i told her what have i been thinking of. i regret but what done cannot be undone. why can't i just be contented with her as a friend? she make a good friend but i feel that i wll hurt her if we will be together.. i don wan to hurt someone that i want to love. she is a good girl and i really cant bear to do anything to her. i hope you can understand me if you read this blog. i know i being selfish but .... it enough that i have get to know you. it have been a long time since i fall in love again, the feeling is great but no fate, haha.. wen, you take care. i miss you..

slping soon

i had a long and bored day today, campmates went for exercise but i did not participate.. thought they going out for exercise so during lunch time i went up to my bunk to have a nap but by the time i wake up, it was already 4plus in the afternoon. sgt terence called me and said that OC and OPS WO was angry with me for missing in action but i just simply bo chap but luckily nothing bad happen to me. saty at he office for the whole evening until 10 plus then i get to book out. send ah long home b4 going back home. watch the scv until now, going to sleep after i take my bath. i am so tired, OoOOooo, yawning already..