lonely life with no one to share my problem..

going to sleep soon, on monday 08012007 i was doing guard duty at camp, so boring and tiring.. after three month never do guard, really shag out. our 2 year anniversary on that day, kind of sad but what to do? are forgetting that difficult, i really wanna erase the sad memory from my heart, i really don want to think of it anymore. i don't deserve this type of suffering. miss my son alot, feel like seeing him. don't talk about this already, today after guard rest i went to see the SAF counsellor and chit-chat for awhile then i went to meet fuxing. after having dinner, play number with them and come back at 1 plus. stay at home will let me think so much but going out must spend money. really cannot afford to go out so often liao.. sure die like that. just wish that everything will pass over soon and i can be the zhiguang i once used to be.